Building that “anchor point” in my day; or, getting my mental schedule back on track…

I have to say I haven't gotten the hang of consistency for much longer than a week or two. Perhaps that's why I was such a wage slave for so many years and am just now trying to get away from that and bear some more responsibility for what I can and will do in … Continue reading Building that “anchor point” in my day; or, getting my mental schedule back on track…

Choices & Chances, or, learning to finally use this quarantine period to my advantage…

To be clear, I'm pretty sure I DON'T have Covid-19. I had some minor symptoms that began to pile up earlier, but it very well could've been some other illnesses coming together (allergies, stomach irritations coming and going) added to the skyrocketing anxiety I was starting to have, making things feel worse than they actually … Continue reading Choices & Chances, or, learning to finally use this quarantine period to my advantage…

That moment when you realize you actually suck at making & sticking to a personal schedule…

It hit me out of the blue, and I don't know why. Maybe it's because I'd brought up my sticky notes app on my desktop earlier to pass on some info to a friend, and saw some other sticky notes I'd forgotten about. 3 had aborted attempts at a daily schedule, with rainy day vs. … Continue reading That moment when you realize you actually suck at making & sticking to a personal schedule…

The Jaws Log (expanded edition), by Carl Gottlieb

My Copy: 9780062229281 (image from goodreads.com) I actually finished this book a few days ago, but I was stewing about how you can think of it. Jaws has been my fave movie for ages, so to read a book about the background of the movie? Why the hell not?! Well, this book doesn't have as broad … Continue reading The Jaws Log (expanded edition), by Carl Gottlieb

When you’re of two minds, yet somehow using neither of them…

That's the best way I think I can describe the past week. Realizing that I need to make serious changes, losing sleep over the things I'm NOT doing to help my job situation, making plans... and then just somehow letting things slip away. I've been trying to get back into therapy, but it's been a … Continue reading When you’re of two minds, yet somehow using neither of them…

When you’re falling behind, but don’t seem to care…

I don't know what it is, but I've let so many things slide this week. Things I've absolutely had to do, like coursework and finals (which I'm going to try to take tomorrow, hell or high water), house-cleaning and exercise. I did get quite a bit accomplished outside, I have to admit. I spray-painted my … Continue reading When you’re falling behind, but don’t seem to care…

Don’t underestimate the usefulness of writing prompts… but maybe, don’t go overboard, either.

I'm trying to get my writing groove back and stimulate my thinking and imagination. I'm sure that's necessary to get to writing full time and enjoying the hell out of it. But when my own ideas are seemingly blocked, or I'm stuck with trying to figure out which idea I should resurrect first... it's a … Continue reading Don’t underestimate the usefulness of writing prompts… but maybe, don’t go overboard, either.

I forgot what a full (& productive) day felt like, til now.

I'm trying to figure out how it happened. Other than a quick go early this morning online to do a few basic things for my gaming team to get points, I got started with my day. I think I only touched YouTube most of the day to put some stuff on for noise come mid … Continue reading I forgot what a full (& productive) day felt like, til now.

The Hell of a prolonged creative paralysis, especially when it’s mostly your own fault.

The phrase popped up in my mind, out of the blue a few minutes ago. I didn't even know it was a legitimate thing until I Googled the phrase "creative paralysis." But apparently that's the proper term when it comes to what I've been beating myself up over the past several months. Writing notebooks have … Continue reading The Hell of a prolonged creative paralysis, especially when it’s mostly your own fault.