August’s punches just keep landing on me; or, being on a tightrope of suspense just pisses me off…

I got a slight boost of positivity today after listening to some beautiful music, but the annoyance and dread are still making themselves front and center. I've had crappy sleep the past 3 nights because of obsessive needlepointing (couldn't do much else, and I had a drive to finish the projects) and a list of … Continue reading August’s punches just keep landing on me; or, being on a tightrope of suspense just pisses me off…

Almost June. My Summer of [self-]love & daring begins… I hope.

My brain has been all over the place this past weekend, awash in too many thoughts to really keep track. Just when I think I had some things pinned down, another would come my way. It was tiring, and working on chores was a helpful distraction at some points. But when my feet were throbbing … Continue reading Almost June. My Summer of [self-]love & daring begins… I hope.

Being me, I just HAD to tackle the hardest area of my house far too early…

It's almost time for me to head to bed right now, but my feet are still throbbing from walking around all day on the dirtiest floor (despite some intense cleaning efforts the past few days). With all the hidden places dirt's been accumulating, I'm gonna have to do my "shoes at the door" rule again … Continue reading Being me, I just HAD to tackle the hardest area of my house far too early…

Biting the bullet & making a tough choice that feels like lancing a boil… in the brain.

As fun and accomplished as yesterday turned out to be, today, sadly, was not quite so accomplished. At least, not on paper... but emotionally it's been something else. All I managed to do yesterday, I think I'd be generous to say I'd gotten 1/4 of the same done today. I woke up an hour late … Continue reading Biting the bullet & making a tough choice that feels like lancing a boil… in the brain.

A math problem just broke my brain, & now I’m questioning how the hell I can be sure of ANY basic algebra answer I come up with from now on…

I wasn't expecting this to happen. The video just showed up in my recommends and I took a look at it. And now I'm frustrated to hell. And SO FREAKING GLAD I'm not tutoring older kids in math anymore... because I would just confuse the hell out of them. I'll just say that though I … Continue reading A math problem just broke my brain, & now I’m questioning how the hell I can be sure of ANY basic algebra answer I come up with from now on…

I’m almost at the point where I will be free to start over… & I’m wondering how to start.

It's been a pretty insane little week with people coming in and me trying to just get through waiting for the newbie to get done with training. I have to work tomorrow and I wish I didn't because I'm getting more headaches more often and I just want to be away from work. It kinda … Continue reading I’m almost at the point where I will be free to start over… & I’m wondering how to start.

I’m considering quitting my job for possibly silly (or just minuscule) reasons…

I can't think of the last time I honestly sat here and said to myself "yeah, time to start looking for another job." Not that I figured I'd be at this one forever, but it had some things going for it, and I was used to it and didn't mind it. But apparently, I like … Continue reading I’m considering quitting my job for possibly silly (or just minuscule) reasons…

How an outwardly positive person can be infested with negative thoughts.

Yeah, after dwelling on weirdness that happened today (but I was too headachy to think about it much), this idea popped into my mind. Anybody I work with would call me a generally positive person, though I may let out a little steam when there's something frustrating going on. That's for one-on-one discussions whenever possible, … Continue reading How an outwardly positive person can be infested with negative thoughts.

When “busy work” is just that, & you finally acknowledge it…

Maybe it's the internet outages I've had the past week, or the odd schedule I've been trying to contend with. Maybe it's looking at things in my old notebooks that just don't gel anymore and I want to make them right. Maybe it's that I just haven't wanted to do housecleaning because I don't have … Continue reading When “busy work” is just that, & you finally acknowledge it…

#113–What’s the deal with the red thing hanging off the turkey’s beak area?

I was looking for thanksgiving turkey crafts to do with the kiddos this month, and also some coloring sheets, when I remembered something. The more I looked at turkeys, even the simply drawn ones, they all had that red thing dripping off the side of their head. Apparently, it's called a snood, but what the … Continue reading #113–What’s the deal with the red thing hanging off the turkey’s beak area?