When you’re of two minds, yet somehow using neither of them…

That's the best way I think I can describe the past week. Realizing that I need to make serious changes, losing sleep over the things I'm NOT doing to help my job situation, making plans... and then just somehow letting things slip away. I've been trying to get back into therapy, but it's been a … Continue reading When you’re of two minds, yet somehow using neither of them…

One of those days… though maybe I’ll be lucky & it’ll just be a crap morning.

I should've known how today would start. I went to sleep with some bad thoughts swirling around my head because of some mail I got yesterday, and spent some time trying to stamp them down, put a positive on 'em, and get some much-needed sleep. Because of it, I tried to sleep in a bit, … Continue reading One of those days… though maybe I’ll be lucky & it’ll just be a crap morning.

Pushing Myself to Clean Better

Once again, the angels of duty and responsibility have reared their heads and declared war on my demons of procrastination. Though in my defense, it wasn't entirely wasted time. I WAS doing necessary and relevant things outside while the weather was good. But damn, this place is a few dust bunnies and dirt clots away … Continue reading Pushing Myself to Clean Better

Trying to pull myself back up and get my head on straight…

Except for those anxious/exciting days when I was messing with my well system, that feeling of being mentally checked out hasn't budged. When it wasn't really dumb stuff or acts of nature working on me, I was just not there. Honestly, if you asked me what I'd done the past few days, I'd have a … Continue reading Trying to pull myself back up and get my head on straight…

Looks like Laura is getting ever closer…

(image from abc13.com, KTRK Houston, of Hurricane Laura... from definitely not right now!) According to the Doppler radar, the outer bands are not too far from me and playing with Beaumont right now. I'm probably a good 40ish miles westward from there, and the wind has been gradually picking up throughout the day. I've also … Continue reading Looks like Laura is getting ever closer…

When “sleeping on it” is the best thing you’ve done for yourself all week…

I try to be a creative person as much as I can. But I have a few things that tend to get in the way of that, namely that I'm an over-analyzer with impulsive tendencies. I realized while writing this that it doesn't make much sense. You're generally either one or the other. Well, I'm … Continue reading When “sleeping on it” is the best thing you’ve done for yourself all week…

Feels like it’s going to be weeks & weeks of Sundays (most of the time).

For those who've read here before, you know I generally HATE Sundays. I've hated them because of how some places just aren't open, or close so early, or open so late, and that hour between 2 and 3 just drags on forever. By the time you decide to go somewhere, everybody else has had the … Continue reading Feels like it’s going to be weeks & weeks of Sundays (most of the time).

When “busy work” is just that, & you finally acknowledge it…

Maybe it's the internet outages I've had the past week, or the odd schedule I've been trying to contend with. Maybe it's looking at things in my old notebooks that just don't gel anymore and I want to make them right. Maybe it's that I just haven't wanted to do housecleaning because I don't have … Continue reading When “busy work” is just that, & you finally acknowledge it…

Putting all you enjoy on the back-burner because of work…

Well, this one is almost me today this month, except substitute the words "time for a book" for "TV" and "time for sleep" for "beer" and I'd have to say we're damned close. I haven't had the chance to enjoy kickboxing in weeks, and I'm sure there are some at the mats who wonder if … Continue reading Putting all you enjoy on the back-burner because of work…