At least, nothing that absolutely needed to get done. I should've had a clean house top to bottom by now, a bunch of hours of exercise under my belt, lots of music practice, etc. Instead, I ended up wasting days going over my book list, revising and editing what to read and when (and leaving … Continue reading When you have so much on your plate that you end up getting nothing done…
This could easily become another post about "impostor syndrome," but I think it goes far beyond that. Last weekend, when I was going to my piano lesson, one of the guys who worked there mentioned a recital that Sunday and that I could go or if I wanted to participate, let them know. I was … Continue reading Feeling like you’re good enough to put yourself out there in the world…
Naturally, health is going to be on the list. The difficulty is this week especially, I have to focus on finances and getting things corrected before all the tax season stuff gets really going. That's what I hate the most, but today and tomorrow I'm dedicating myself to getting it all cleared up as best … Continue reading Playing with New Years Resolutions. Learning how to prioritize me.
I kept looking at my e-mails and my schedule earlier and decided to RSVP to an event. It's technically all weekend, coming and going and all, and if things go right, I can be there between shifts. They have a preview weekend where I like to get my musical instruments, a chance to meet the … Continue reading Personal Promises, Making Changes, and Murphy’s Law
I'm almost sick of looking at them on my table. I had to take the sticker gum off most of the books and let them dry before I could stick a new library label on each spine. Yeah, it takes work to save money with books, and the goo gone and cotton balls in the … Continue reading Why I Can’t Stop Buying Books: A Theory
My house still needs to be put in order and family crap is in the way. I've gone a little nuts buying fruit trees, though, so each day (if the weather's cooperated), I've managed to plant one in the past week and a half. I now have six more to go, and just have to … Continue reading The Joy of Work (-ing, on what you want to work on anyway, that is)
I could live to be 100 and still hate Sunday afternoons. I shouldn't be surprised that my most depressing moods occur around this time of the week, damn near every week. It also doesn't help that I was hanging around at home in case some visitors showed up, since they said they'd "drop by this … Continue reading #089–When does self-reflection become a self-defeating cycle?
Boy I love going to get a massage. When I let the craziness of the past weeks drift away, I can really think, and think really hard about what I need or want to do most. My initial goals about music and art and reading books haven't changed a bit, but I really have to … Continue reading I’m giving myself the rest of March to clean up the place: house, pantry, body, all of it.
For once, the "To-Do List Monster" has kept quiet and not reared it's ugly head too often the past couple of months. Busy, busy, busy, and still not much of a to-do list. I never thought that'd make things worse as far as long-term goals went. Surprisingly, my most common procrastination method is more helpful … Continue reading Need to get the foot out of my mouth (that’s where the clarinet goes, dammit)
My Copy: 9780385477819 (image from bn.com) I've always wanted to understand science better, and I've been impressed with Michio Kaku's approach to explaining it in documentaries and whatnot. I had to tackle his explanations in book form, and began with this one. Beyond Einstein gives more than the theory of relativity that we've been used … Continue reading Beyond Einstein: The Cosmic Quest for the theory of the Universe