Fell a little further than I planned; or, how I suddenly realized I can’t hold myself back forever…

Somehow, I just shut down. I pushed aside everything I'd planned or tried to work on and ended up in some odd little limbo inside my own head. No real goals worked toward, just ideas discarded and never revisited or improved upon. It's been successful only in that I've been able to whittle down my … Continue reading Fell a little further than I planned; or, how I suddenly realized I can’t hold myself back forever…

If “fast food withdrawal” is real, I’m sure I’ve been going through it this past week…

Before work this past Saturday, I sat down to what I decided was gonna be my last incredibly unhealthy meal out: eggs, hash browns, sausage and bacon, yummy pancakes (I REALLY wanted pancakes all last week, dunno why), OJ and weak-ass coffee that needed a bunch of sugar to make it palatable. This was the … Continue reading If “fast food withdrawal” is real, I’m sure I’ve been going through it this past week…

Attempting to (re)introduce fish into my diet and my home… & it’s gonna be tough

My numbers suck. That's what it comes down to. I've spent a while working on my iron deficiency (ebbing and flowing, namely because my diet over the past year has been awful and I've relapsed in regards to my ED a few times), and now I'm more concerned about my cholesterol A1C and my 10+ … Continue reading Attempting to (re)introduce fish into my diet and my home… & it’s gonna be tough

My mind has been out of action for nearly a week… & it’s slowly coming back online.

If you were to ask me what I did this week, I'd be hard pressed to give you little more than a very vague answer. I know there's a bunch of things I was THINKING about doing, but somehow the week slipped by (and yes, I went to work...wasn't THAT far gone) and I realized … Continue reading My mind has been out of action for nearly a week… & it’s slowly coming back online.

My DIY faucet replacement; or, where I remember that valve shut-offs exist for a reason…

(image from diy.stackexchange.com) Well, it was bound to happen, I suppose. I'm just glad things didn't end up broken and I just had to not use my bathroom a few days (and run a fan to dry the cabinets out, and use oodles of towels to mop up the mess, and remove a rug to … Continue reading My DIY faucet replacement; or, where I remember that valve shut-offs exist for a reason…

The virtue of patience, & trying to cultivate it…

I think we've all seen the phrase "patience is a virtue" at some point, and it's been said often enough that it's rather passe, or said as a kind of "shut up and stop bothering me" statement toward someone who is mimicking a pressure cooker around you. Well, I wish like hell I could figure … Continue reading The virtue of patience, & trying to cultivate it…

Choices & Chances, or, learning to finally use this quarantine period to my advantage…

To be clear, I'm pretty sure I DON'T have Covid-19. I had some minor symptoms that began to pile up earlier, but it very well could've been some other illnesses coming together (allergies, stomach irritations coming and going) added to the skyrocketing anxiety I was starting to have, making things feel worse than they actually … Continue reading Choices & Chances, or, learning to finally use this quarantine period to my advantage…

When you’re of two minds, yet somehow using neither of them…

That's the best way I think I can describe the past week. Realizing that I need to make serious changes, losing sleep over the things I'm NOT doing to help my job situation, making plans... and then just somehow letting things slip away. I've been trying to get back into therapy, but it's been a … Continue reading When you’re of two minds, yet somehow using neither of them…

I figured I’d take my time & wing the to-do list the past two days… & boy, I got lost.

I'm trying not to giggle while The Pixies' song "Where is My Mind?" goes off in my head. Because I have no clue what the hell happened the past two days while I was at home. I do remember getting a few things from the store, some really crappy eating choices, and then a bunch … Continue reading I figured I’d take my time & wing the to-do list the past two days… & boy, I got lost.

Oops, I did it again… hopefully for the last time this year.

I'm getting the sneaking suspicion that I should maybe get off this "I want to be a writer for a living" kick and try and save up money for a farm, because plants seem to be all I've focused on this past month. Somehow, without planning on it, I started thinking of nearly every size … Continue reading Oops, I did it again… hopefully for the last time this year.