Biting the bullet & making a tough choice that feels like lancing a boil… in the brain.

As fun and accomplished as yesterday turned out to be, today, sadly, was not quite so accomplished. At least, not on paper... but emotionally it's been something else. All I managed to do yesterday, I think I'd be generous to say I'd gotten 1/4 of the same done today. I woke up an hour late … Continue reading Biting the bullet & making a tough choice that feels like lancing a boil… in the brain.

Revisiting my plans to quit my job: to jump without a safety net, or not?

A few days ago, down in the dumps and letting things wash over me, I thought about really quitting my job. Now, I'm of the opinion that I need to hand in my two weeks notice today. Without a safety net. Without a job lined up and already ready to go. Because all I know … Continue reading Revisiting my plans to quit my job: to jump without a safety net, or not?

When you finally get a break from the fight… & end up sick.

I guess this was the logical conclusion to running on nothing but junk food and caffeine for several days on end, working open to close four days in a row. I wasn't supposed to go back in until two this afternoon, but when I woke up this morning, I went from a slight bit of … Continue reading When you finally get a break from the fight… & end up sick.

Waste of a Hot Sunday… a little of this and a lot of nothing.

Let's say my To-Do list for this week has totally gone by the wayside. I should be working on a bunch of stuff and getting my instruments in tune to play. Part of me blames a day-long headache for what's happened, and a lousy nap that barely took the edge off. Maybe it shouldn't be … Continue reading Waste of a Hot Sunday… a little of this and a lot of nothing.

Need to get the foot out of my mouth (that’s where the clarinet goes, dammit)

For once, the "To-Do List Monster" has kept quiet and not reared it's ugly head too often the past couple of months. Busy, busy, busy, and still not much of a to-do list. I never thought that'd make things worse as far as long-term goals went. Surprisingly, my most common procrastination method is more helpful … Continue reading Need to get the foot out of my mouth (that’s where the clarinet goes, dammit)

Revolving Headaches lasting over a week–tension or something else?

I won't lie--I have a bad habit of over-preparing for things and overestimating how much I can actually get done. Realistic time assessment is something I've always struggled with. I spent most of September and October working 60-90 hours a week. November and early December I spent working at and/or driving to an alternate work-site … Continue reading Revolving Headaches lasting over a week–tension or something else?

Work, work, work all the time…but my breaks are exhausting!

This is something I've noticed about myself when it comes to working and getting in the groove. I just want to keep going. I will avoid breaks just to make sure things go smoothly and I can finish my project when it's a doozy. Sometimes, though, I am forced to take breaks, so as long … Continue reading Work, work, work all the time…but my breaks are exhausting!

#038–How do you know you’re meditating correctly?

"Meditation" seems like a pretty simple concept, until I get looking and reading up on techniques and tips on how to do it best. There's not much of a consensus on how to do it properly, it seems. I've thumbed through a half dozen books, a lecture or two, some websites, and there are a … Continue reading #038–How do you know you’re meditating correctly?

Finding my dreams: or, how to stop working in my sleep…

I've noticed a sleepless trend the last few months. To be more precise, it's the inability to know how much sleep I've gotten or if it could be considered sleep. Most of my nights remind me of the one M*A*S*H episode of exhausted Hawkeye telling Col. Blake. "I had a dream that I was asleep … Continue reading Finding my dreams: or, how to stop working in my sleep…