I forgot how exhausting job searches are, and how NOT user friendly and time consuming the sites are… til today.

I should've figured waiting a couple weeks to try again with applications would've led to a drastic reduction in available jobs. So, I'm partially kicking myself, but at the same time, I was waiting for word (or a lack of word) to let me know if I should keep trying. I forgot that it'd be … Continue reading I forgot how exhausting job searches are, and how NOT user friendly and time consuming the sites are… til today.

Those days when your brain takes a staycation behind locked doors and you need it around to answer a bajillion questions…

It's a strange phenomenon when you get to the end of the evening and know that you'd done a lot in the course of the day, but for the life of you, if someone asked what, you'd be hard pressed to give an answer. I'm sure a big chunk of it was spent taking care … Continue reading Those days when your brain takes a staycation behind locked doors and you need it around to answer a bajillion questions…

Feeling Oddly Triumphant After Being Out-of-Sorts All Day; or, Fixing Things Really Boosts That Self-Esteem…

This was turning out very crappy today. And no, I don't mean it's because I'm single and it's that damned Valentine's Day. Hell, I almost forgot about it til I saw kids coming off the bus with heart-shaped chocolate boxes this afternoon. That's more like it. I'd love an anatomically correct heart for V-day. I … Continue reading Feeling Oddly Triumphant After Being Out-of-Sorts All Day; or, Fixing Things Really Boosts That Self-Esteem…

When you’re of two minds, yet somehow using neither of them…

That's the best way I think I can describe the past week. Realizing that I need to make serious changes, losing sleep over the things I'm NOT doing to help my job situation, making plans... and then just somehow letting things slip away. I've been trying to get back into therapy, but it's been a … Continue reading When you’re of two minds, yet somehow using neither of them…

Q #164: Is the whole “wellness tea” thing actually a bunch of b.s.?

I was cleaning out my cabinet for my mugs because I finally got my expanding shelves in (yay!), and I discovered that I had a LOT more tea than I remembered. I hadn't had any in a while, probably because it was a pain to get to that part of the cabinet (and of course, … Continue reading Q #164: Is the whole “wellness tea” thing actually a bunch of b.s.?

It’s pretty bad when your parakeets eat better than you do…

Maybe not in the sense of priorities--you want to give them the best nutrition possible so they don't up and die on you, or waddle around fat with too many seeds in their belly because they need more vitamins and can't fly to burn off the calories. And I've got two that are popping out … Continue reading It’s pretty bad when your parakeets eat better than you do…

The Hell of a prolonged creative paralysis, especially when it’s mostly your own fault.

The phrase popped up in my mind, out of the blue a few minutes ago. I didn't even know it was a legitimate thing until I Googled the phrase "creative paralysis." But apparently that's the proper term when it comes to what I've been beating myself up over the past several months. Writing notebooks have … Continue reading The Hell of a prolonged creative paralysis, especially when it’s mostly your own fault.

When you’ve finally snapped out of it, but have no clue how it happened…

I've been on a bit of a cleaning streak the past few days. I have no clue how, after months of just being listless, searching for something but getting nowhere, and having no energy... I just got up and started cleaning mid-morning on Saturday. I put my keyboard down, started some laundry, went to my … Continue reading When you’ve finally snapped out of it, but have no clue how it happened…

Trying to pull myself back up and get my head on straight…

Except for those anxious/exciting days when I was messing with my well system, that feeling of being mentally checked out hasn't budged. When it wasn't really dumb stuff or acts of nature working on me, I was just not there. Honestly, if you asked me what I'd done the past few days, I'd have a … Continue reading Trying to pull myself back up and get my head on straight…

Being generally tired for not much reason…

My Christmas tree looks pretty sparse this year. I just pulled out the musical instrument ornaments I went crazy over last year and put them on, and I'm getting some of those "s'more" figure ones in the mail soon... but I left the colorful plastic multicolored bubbles on hooks in the box. I just didn't … Continue reading Being generally tired for not much reason…