August’s punches just keep landing on me; or, being on a tightrope of suspense just pisses me off…

I got a slight boost of positivity today after listening to some beautiful music, but the annoyance and dread are still making themselves front and center. I've had crappy sleep the past 3 nights because of obsessive needlepointing (couldn't do much else, and I had a drive to finish the projects) and a list of … Continue reading August’s punches just keep landing on me; or, being on a tightrope of suspense just pisses me off…

When negativity gets you to vacillate between numbness & catastrophizing, & then throws you overboard…

My entire past week has been something for my mental record books regarding bad behavior (toward myself). Cue a mysterious ailment and I've gone off the deep end. I'm sitting here now, trying to just breathe in and sip a bit of 7Up to settle my messed up stomach after a week of terrible eating … Continue reading When negativity gets you to vacillate between numbness & catastrophizing, & then throws you overboard…

This Way for the Gas, Ladies & Gentlemen, by Tadeusz Borowski

My Copy: 9780140186246 (image from bn.com) It's not a long book, but I had to spend some time pondering it, because I'm not certain how to feel. I feel it's importance, and am mystified why it's not better known when it comes to Holocaust-related works. Several of the short stories were indeed published just after … Continue reading This Way for the Gas, Ladies & Gentlemen, by Tadeusz Borowski

My near-week of dizzy hell points most likely to Vestibular Migraines

Even now, I'm typing this in my darkened living room, occasionally looking at the TV screen with one eye shut from 10 feet away to keep out the super-brightness coming through the blinds. I just went online out of desperation and ordered some indoor migraine/gamer glasses to keep on the end table and desk in … Continue reading My near-week of dizzy hell points most likely to Vestibular Migraines

I think I FINALLY managed to bore myself out of my usual procrastination methods…

It's been a hard road to slog through, and I've fallen way behind on some things and barely touched others. My days and evenings have been full of obsessively playing video games, hoping to reach ever-elusive goals. And then, while doing that, making new reading lists for the year (because my files weren't saving right … Continue reading I think I FINALLY managed to bore myself out of my usual procrastination methods…

I need to divorce pizza & learn to never let it back in the door…

There's always that weakness that you don't know is a weakness until you're sitting there going, "oh, hell--did I REALLY just do that AGAIN?" In my case, that's pizza. There are other foods that I ingest that don't know the meaning of the word "moderation", but pizza is the big one. I think it's all … Continue reading I need to divorce pizza & learn to never let it back in the door…

The end of an era; or, the “squawking green chicken” has flown the coop forever…

It's 5:30 a.m. and I just got in from burying my 28 year old green cheeked Amazon in the yard. I knew something was up with him, but it was the alarmed squeaking and wing-flapping from my parakeets that clued me in that something was amiss. And when I looked to see if there was … Continue reading The end of an era; or, the “squawking green chicken” has flown the coop forever…

I’m almost at the point where I will be free to start over… & I’m wondering how to start.

It's been a pretty insane little week with people coming in and me trying to just get through waiting for the newbie to get done with training. I have to work tomorrow and I wish I didn't because I'm getting more headaches more often and I just want to be away from work. It kinda … Continue reading I’m almost at the point where I will be free to start over… & I’m wondering how to start.

Q #125: Lies, damned lies, & statistics; or, Coronavirus versus other modern contagions.

I talked to my mom this morning after debating with myself for 20 minutes on whether or not I should (not a promising sign). I was worried she was gonna be one of those hoaxers or conspiracy theorists about the whole virus deal. Well, only took three minutes to get into it, and thankfully only … Continue reading Q #125: Lies, damned lies, & statistics; or, Coronavirus versus other modern contagions.

Stevia & me don’t get along; or, a minor setback in trying to be sugar-smart.

I admit, I love my orange juice. It's one of the few things I tend to crave when coffee or tea just aren't doing it, and especially when I'm really thirsty and sick. I'm not a huge soda person (most of the time, anyway), so orange juice is really a morning thing I love to … Continue reading Stevia & me don’t get along; or, a minor setback in trying to be sugar-smart.