Tag: illness

When you’re screwed & you know it, & get even more screwed, to the point where you’re ready for the meteor to hit & end it already… but still hanging onto a thread of hope

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Well, no meteor, but the dog suddenly revealing what "supposedly yummy treasure" she ingested from who-knows-who's yard all over blankets and the floor a couple hours before bedtime is a helluva substitute for a universal F-you. I'd planned to stay up a while with a list of things to at least get a good start … Continue reading When you’re screwed & you know it, & get even more screwed, to the point where you’re ready for the meteor to hit & end it already… but still hanging onto a thread of hope

If “fast food withdrawal” is real, I’m sure I’ve been going through it this past week…

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Before work this past Saturday, I sat down to what I decided was gonna be my last incredibly unhealthy meal out: eggs, hash browns, sausage and bacon, yummy pancakes (I REALLY wanted pancakes all last week, dunno why), OJ and weak-ass coffee that needed a bunch of sugar to make it palatable. This was the … Continue reading If “fast food withdrawal” is real, I’m sure I’ve been going through it this past week…

Attempting to (re)introduce fish into my diet and my home… & it’s gonna be tough

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My numbers suck. That's what it comes down to. I've spent a while working on my iron deficiency (ebbing and flowing, namely because my diet over the past year has been awful and I've relapsed in regards to my ED a few times), and now I'm more concerned about my cholesterol A1C and my 10+ … Continue reading Attempting to (re)introduce fish into my diet and my home… & it’s gonna be tough

Seems my “shoe-drop” was a day later than expected… & it happened to one of my feathered family instead…

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Well, two weeks ago it was the plumbing madness. Last week it was an E.R. visit thanks to bad timing, a sharp knife, and a misplaced thumb. Now, it's Miss Aqua, the 3rd parakeet I'd bought. I'd expected the shoe to drop yesterday, if it was going to at all (Thursdays being what they've been, … Continue reading Seems my “shoe-drop” was a day later than expected… & it happened to one of my feathered family instead…

August’s punches just keep landing on me; or, being on a tightrope of suspense just pisses me off…

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I got a slight boost of positivity today after listening to some beautiful music, but the annoyance and dread are still making themselves front and center. I've had crappy sleep the past 3 nights because of obsessive needlepointing (couldn't do much else, and I had a drive to finish the projects) and a list of … Continue reading August’s punches just keep landing on me; or, being on a tightrope of suspense just pisses me off…

When negativity gets you to vacillate between numbness & catastrophizing, & then throws you overboard…

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My entire past week has been something for my mental record books regarding bad behavior (toward myself). Cue a mysterious ailment and I've gone off the deep end. I'm sitting here now, trying to just breathe in and sip a bit of 7Up to settle my messed up stomach after a week of terrible eating … Continue reading When negativity gets you to vacillate between numbness & catastrophizing, & then throws you overboard…

This Way for the Gas, Ladies & Gentlemen, by Tadeusz Borowski

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My Copy: 9780140186246 (image from bn.com) It's not a long book, but I had to spend some time pondering it, because I'm not certain how to feel. I feel it's importance, and am mystified why it's not better known when it comes to Holocaust-related works. Several of the short stories were indeed published just after … Continue reading This Way for the Gas, Ladies & Gentlemen, by Tadeusz Borowski

My near-week of dizzy hell points most likely to Vestibular Migraines

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Even now, I'm typing this in my darkened living room, occasionally looking at the TV screen with one eye shut from 10 feet away to keep out the super-brightness coming through the blinds. I just went online out of desperation and ordered some indoor migraine/gamer glasses to keep on the end table and desk in … Continue reading My near-week of dizzy hell points most likely to Vestibular Migraines

I think I FINALLY managed to bore myself out of my usual procrastination methods…

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It's been a hard road to slog through, and I've fallen way behind on some things and barely touched others. My days and evenings have been full of obsessively playing video games, hoping to reach ever-elusive goals. And then, while doing that, making new reading lists for the year (because my files weren't saving right … Continue reading I think I FINALLY managed to bore myself out of my usual procrastination methods…

I need to divorce pizza & learn to never let it back in the door…

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There's always that weakness that you don't know is a weakness until you're sitting there going, "oh, hell--did I REALLY just do that AGAIN?" In my case, that's pizza. There are other foods that I ingest that don't know the meaning of the word "moderation", but pizza is the big one. I think it's all … Continue reading I need to divorce pizza & learn to never let it back in the door…