Biting the bullet & making a tough choice that feels like lancing a boil… in the brain.

As fun and accomplished as yesterday turned out to be, today, sadly, was not quite so accomplished. At least, not on paper... but emotionally it's been something else. All I managed to do yesterday, I think I'd be generous to say I'd gotten 1/4 of the same done today. I woke up an hour late … Continue reading Biting the bullet & making a tough choice that feels like lancing a boil… in the brain.

Trapped between a rock & a hard place, & all the while I can see the path below plain as day…

My excitement over getting a new self-sustaining chapter in my life has started developing a bitter taste the past few weeks, and it's only getting worse. Don't get me wrong, I like the solar company I'm working with and they are doing what they can to help me out. It's the financing company we both … Continue reading Trapped between a rock & a hard place, & all the while I can see the path below plain as day…

The Hell of a prolonged creative paralysis, especially when it’s mostly your own fault.

The phrase popped up in my mind, out of the blue a few minutes ago. I didn't even know it was a legitimate thing until I Googled the phrase "creative paralysis." But apparently that's the proper term when it comes to what I've been beating myself up over the past several months. Writing notebooks have … Continue reading The Hell of a prolonged creative paralysis, especially when it’s mostly your own fault.

Blitz Q #158: When your sleeping patterns have been interrupted for a while, which is the worse scenario…?

I've pondered this one for years and still can't make up my mind on which would be worse when you've had lousy sleep for a week or so, and then one morning either: A. You wake up, and you're wide awake. Not a trace of sleepiness, must've been a deep sleep. You're awake enough that … Continue reading Blitz Q #158: When your sleeping patterns have been interrupted for a while, which is the worse scenario…?

I may have orphaned myself yesterday, but only time (& more dreadful conversations) will tell…

It's become clear to me that other than our tempers, when it comes to the big things, my mother and I are polar opposites. I started yesterday morning off fine & was taking pics of some of what I was pulling from the garden (didn't want to risk losing them to the storm). We had … Continue reading I may have orphaned myself yesterday, but only time (& more dreadful conversations) will tell…

Q #142: How the hell did buying a refrigerator become so complicated?

I was thinking hard about getting a second refrigerator to go in the house because of all the fruits and veggies I'm anticipating having to freeze and store eventually. I've got a watermelon the size of a golf ball hanging off a trellis, and four yellow crookneck squash off another plant. I have some bean … Continue reading Q #142: How the hell did buying a refrigerator become so complicated?

When “you get what you pay for” means you’ve lost not just money, but time as well.

I wasn't feeling very good today, just general tiredness from the storm the night before waking me up several times. I finished most of my notebook regarding plants I'm working with and any specs and instructions I can find on them, and then went to check on what I already had planted versus what was … Continue reading When “you get what you pay for” means you’ve lost not just money, but time as well.