August’s punches just keep landing on me; or, being on a tightrope of suspense just pisses me off…

I got a slight boost of positivity today after listening to some beautiful music, but the annoyance and dread are still making themselves front and center. I've had crappy sleep the past 3 nights because of obsessive needlepointing (couldn't do much else, and I had a drive to finish the projects) and a list of … Continue reading August’s punches just keep landing on me; or, being on a tightrope of suspense just pisses me off…

Choices & Chances, or, learning to finally use this quarantine period to my advantage…

To be clear, I'm pretty sure I DON'T have Covid-19. I had some minor symptoms that began to pile up earlier, but it very well could've been some other illnesses coming together (allergies, stomach irritations coming and going) added to the skyrocketing anxiety I was starting to have, making things feel worse than they actually … Continue reading Choices & Chances, or, learning to finally use this quarantine period to my advantage…

When you’re of two minds, yet somehow using neither of them…

That's the best way I think I can describe the past week. Realizing that I need to make serious changes, losing sleep over the things I'm NOT doing to help my job situation, making plans... and then just somehow letting things slip away. I've been trying to get back into therapy, but it's been a … Continue reading When you’re of two minds, yet somehow using neither of them…

Almost June. My Summer of [self-]love & daring begins… I hope.

My brain has been all over the place this past weekend, awash in too many thoughts to really keep track. Just when I think I had some things pinned down, another would come my way. It was tiring, and working on chores was a helpful distraction at some points. But when my feet were throbbing … Continue reading Almost June. My Summer of [self-]love & daring begins… I hope.

I never thought there was something in my life that could “trigger” me, & then it happened…

I'm going to bed right after I finish this and a little wine to calm my nerves. I spent the past two hours trying to figure out what the fuck just happened and why... and then trying NOT to think about why too much before I put myself right back into that position. Vicious cycle, … Continue reading I never thought there was something in my life that could “trigger” me, & then it happened…

Red Dragon (Lecter Series #1), by Thomas Harris

My Copy: 0440206154 (image from goodreads.com) Well, finally got a chance to tackle this series again. I've seen most of the films (haven't tried Hannibal Rising yet, nor watched the t.v. show), but after watching a lot of first reactions to Silence of the Lambs, I figured it was on the mind and I should … Continue reading Red Dragon (Lecter Series #1), by Thomas Harris

Fear: Trump in the White House, by Bob Woodward

My Copy: 9781501175510 (image from bn.com) Terrible. And I DON'T mean Woodward's writing (because he's Bob-Freaking-Woodward, so duh). I mean terrible in the sense that as much as I like to think better of people, sometimes they can be far worse than you ever suspected. Fear: Trump in the White House is about the year … Continue reading Fear: Trump in the White House, by Bob Woodward

I’m more in fear for my country now than I EVER was during 9/11.

Strange how I just realized the date's tomorrow. 19 years ago. I remember telling some folks back when Dump was running for office that I'm far more afraid of my neighbors than any foreign terrorist. That goes double these days. Not my immediate neighbors, perhaps, but the area in general. I live deep in Dump … Continue reading I’m more in fear for my country now than I EVER was during 9/11.

I don’t understand the seething hate conservatives seem to have for liberals…

I haven't been north of my house for shopping or anything else in several weeks, certainly not before the mask mandates for the whole state came down. I went to a dollar store about a mile north of my house this morning for coffee creamer (because the world ends in this place if there is … Continue reading I don’t understand the seething hate conservatives seem to have for liberals…

When emotions have become too damned much in a short time: an empath searches for sanity.

I admit, I don't really go for the Woo anymore. I used to get rocks and cool crystals and stuff when I was a kid, and like many an X-Files fan (the Mulder years, anyway), I considered or subscribed to conspiracy theories or the supernatural or paranormal and what was possible or impossible. However, I … Continue reading When emotions have become too damned much in a short time: an empath searches for sanity.