Other than writing, what I would love to do most in my life…

YouTube is weird. Like really weird. Thankfully the page has been littered with good videos on music. I've been rather delighted and teary-eyed the past two hours because of things I'd forgotten, and I found more things I wish I'd known about far sooner. And my heart is aching in my chest because of all the … Continue reading Other than writing, what I would love to do most in my life…

When depression makes you stupid, & dealing with it…

I know, I know. The Holidays (dun-dun-DUN!) bring that out for a ton of people. But really, it isn't so much that. I haven't been depressed in the sense of feeling sad; it's more that feeling where things are pointless or you've mentally checked out. I recognized the depression after three mid-afternoon naps again. I … Continue reading When depression makes you stupid, & dealing with it…

I may have orphaned myself yesterday, but only time (& more dreadful conversations) will tell…

It's become clear to me that other than our tempers, when it comes to the big things, my mother and I are polar opposites. I started yesterday morning off fine & was taking pics of some of what I was pulling from the garden (didn't want to risk losing them to the storm). We had … Continue reading I may have orphaned myself yesterday, but only time (& more dreadful conversations) will tell…

Passing up what could be a good opportunity, only to hope for a better one…

I'm relieved my bestie didn't freak on me and go "what the crap is wrong with you?" when I decided that me and this opportunity are gonna have to go our separate ways. Because of privacy, I'm not divulging much about my work or the company. The big thing is I was in the running … Continue reading Passing up what could be a good opportunity, only to hope for a better one…

When “busy work” is just that, & you finally acknowledge it…

Maybe it's the internet outages I've had the past week, or the odd schedule I've been trying to contend with. Maybe it's looking at things in my old notebooks that just don't gel anymore and I want to make them right. Maybe it's that I just haven't wanted to do housecleaning because I don't have … Continue reading When “busy work” is just that, & you finally acknowledge it…

Looking into the black hole, and I can’t see the safety net.

In essence, my future is a black hole. I suppose that's true for most of us, but I'm really in a strange state regarding my job right now. My boss is leaving the job after next week, and I'm really bummed out about it. I wondered what would happen to the place if she were … Continue reading Looking into the black hole, and I can’t see the safety net.

Q #117: How do you find your dreams again, or make new ones?

This feels like a dumb question to me, but it's one that's been on my mind for some time. I had dreams about how I wanted my life to turn out: a good teaching job, hubby and kids, not filthy rich but comfortable enough and not one paycheck away from losing everything or being unable … Continue reading Q #117: How do you find your dreams again, or make new ones?

Playing with New Years Resolutions. Learning how to prioritize me.

Naturally, health is going to be on the list. The difficulty is this week especially, I have to focus on finances and getting things corrected before all the tax season stuff gets really going. That's what I hate the most, but today and tomorrow I'm dedicating myself to getting it all cleared up as best … Continue reading Playing with New Years Resolutions. Learning how to prioritize me.

Barefoot Gen, vol 9: Breaking Down Borders, by Keiji Nakazawa

My Copy: 9780867196009 (image from bn.com) This volume is a mix of juvenile hijinks done in the name of protest and Gen's knowledge that he's going to have to grow up and figure out what to do with his life. His family is scattered and Natsue is getting worse in her health, ready to die. … Continue reading Barefoot Gen, vol 9: Breaking Down Borders, by Keiji Nakazawa

Recapturing dreams when all is so uncertain.

After a crazy week, that's just one among many this crazy summer, and leaving the office over an hour and a half late tonight... let's just say I'm doing some careful thinking again. My bizarre summer schedule will only get more bizarre for the next couple of weeks until things have calmed down and we're … Continue reading Recapturing dreams when all is so uncertain.