I lucked out in getting a week off of work (basically had to beg for it, but too many yard repairs and I needed some good weather to pull it off) and have spent much of the time outside. Because I overdid it yesterday and wanted to make sure the scratches I got from those … Continue reading To quit or not to quit: my own sunk-cost fallacy dilemma over games and communication issues…
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When you’re screwed & you know it, & get even more screwed, to the point where you’re ready for the meteor to hit & end it already… but still hanging onto a thread of hope
Well, no meteor, but the dog suddenly revealing what "supposedly yummy treasure" she ingested from who-knows-who's yard all over blankets and the floor a couple hours before bedtime is a helluva substitute for a universal F-you. I'd planned to stay up a while with a list of things to at least get a good start … Continue reading When you’re screwed & you know it, & get even more screwed, to the point where you’re ready for the meteor to hit & end it already… but still hanging onto a thread of hope
Blitz Q #171: Which is the better approach to life in the long run: to focus on the present OR focus on your future?
Partially thanks to my weird desire to belt out songs at random like a Disney princess (but not wanting to mangle the words), I've been finding and jotting down song lyrics in notebooks as well as inspirational quotes. I had tons of those things once before, but they had no rhyme or reason to them, … Continue reading Blitz Q #171: Which is the better approach to life in the long run: to focus on the present OR focus on your future?
That moment when you realize you actually suck at making & sticking to a personal schedule…
It hit me out of the blue, and I don't know why. Maybe it's because I'd brought up my sticky notes app on my desktop earlier to pass on some info to a friend, and saw some other sticky notes I'd forgotten about. 3 had aborted attempts at a daily schedule, with rainy day vs. … Continue reading That moment when you realize you actually suck at making & sticking to a personal schedule…
Other than writing, what I would love to do most in my life…
YouTube is weird. Like really weird. Thankfully the page has been littered with good videos on music. I've been rather delighted and teary-eyed the past two hours because of things I'd forgotten, and I found more things I wish I'd known about far sooner. And my heart is aching in my chest because of all the … Continue reading Other than writing, what I would love to do most in my life…
When depression makes you stupid, & dealing with it…
I know, I know. The Holidays (dun-dun-DUN!) bring that out for a ton of people. But really, it isn't so much that. I haven't been depressed in the sense of feeling sad; it's more that feeling where things are pointless or you've mentally checked out. I recognized the depression after three mid-afternoon naps again. I … Continue reading When depression makes you stupid, & dealing with it…
I may have orphaned myself yesterday, but only time (& more dreadful conversations) will tell…
It's become clear to me that other than our tempers, when it comes to the big things, my mother and I are polar opposites. I started yesterday morning off fine & was taking pics of some of what I was pulling from the garden (didn't want to risk losing them to the storm). We had … Continue reading I may have orphaned myself yesterday, but only time (& more dreadful conversations) will tell…
Passing up what could be a good opportunity, only to hope for a better one…
I'm relieved my bestie didn't freak on me and go "what the crap is wrong with you?" when I decided that me and this opportunity are gonna have to go our separate ways. Because of privacy, I'm not divulging much about my work or the company. The big thing is I was in the running … Continue reading Passing up what could be a good opportunity, only to hope for a better one…
When “busy work” is just that, & you finally acknowledge it…
Maybe it's the internet outages I've had the past week, or the odd schedule I've been trying to contend with. Maybe it's looking at things in my old notebooks that just don't gel anymore and I want to make them right. Maybe it's that I just haven't wanted to do housecleaning because I don't have … Continue reading When “busy work” is just that, & you finally acknowledge it…
Looking into the black hole, and I can’t see the safety net.
In essence, my future is a black hole. I suppose that's true for most of us, but I'm really in a strange state regarding my job right now. My boss is leaving the job after next week, and I'm really bummed out about it. I wondered what would happen to the place if she were … Continue reading Looking into the black hole, and I can’t see the safety net.