I had to remind myself of that. So. Damned. Many. Times. Too many. I was feeling tired, worn down, depressed, annoyed, headachy, and just trying to find something--anything--to do. I didn't wanna clean house, and it was a bit hot outside so I didn't take the dogs out right away when I got home. Rather, … Continue reading In spite of everything, we’ve had some crazy beautiful weather out there…
I'm still on the fence about this, and I've been thinking about it since the talk of self-quarantine started coming up in the media. It's just weird to see it out in the real world, too. It looks pretty lonely out beyond work. I'm a work to home person for the most part. Get things … Continue reading A bad time to be a “recovering recluse?”…
Maybe it's the internet outages I've had the past week, or the odd schedule I've been trying to contend with. Maybe it's looking at things in my old notebooks that just don't gel anymore and I want to make them right. Maybe it's that I just haven't wanted to do housecleaning because I don't have … Continue reading When “busy work” is just that, & you finally acknowledge it…
At least, nothing that absolutely needed to get done. I should've had a clean house top to bottom by now, a bunch of hours of exercise under my belt, lots of music practice, etc. Instead, I ended up wasting days going over my book list, revising and editing what to read and when (and leaving … Continue reading When you have so much on your plate that you end up getting nothing done…
I thought about this this morning when I just couldn't sleep anymore and had to wait for the local store to open so I could get some more coffee (and frozen chopped spinach--can't believe the mega grocery store near work didn't have any last night). I call myself a liar because at least a week … Continue reading The closer it gets to Christmas, the more a liar I become…
Naturally, health is going to be on the list. The difficulty is this week especially, I have to focus on finances and getting things corrected before all the tax season stuff gets really going. That's what I hate the most, but today and tomorrow I'm dedicating myself to getting it all cleared up as best … Continue reading Playing with New Years Resolutions. Learning how to prioritize me.
I suppose when it's been an anniversary week like this, emotions and daily life will wreak havoc with careful plans. It wasn't just the emotional baggage, but I've also dealt with a ton of screaming kiddos during camp for several hours a day all week. That didn't help my attempts to be calm, cool, and … Continue reading Trying not to let a bad week derail my efforts…
I've had a sporadic eye-twitch in the past week. Deadlines have loomed ever nearer and my attempts to deal with family and legalese haven't left me in a zen state of mind. My right eye really got twitching on Monday night, and when I looked it up, I noticed stress and fatigue were the two … Continue reading Driving Yourself Crazy Isn’t All That Fun
Thank you, Narrator from Fight Club, for making my point nicely. Yesterday was one of those days where nothing was going right and I ended up on my garage floor, hugging my dog and bawling my eyes out. I've been in a state of needing to be around people until it hurt too much to … Continue reading The Waiting Game Continues… just didn’t expect the weeping, wailing & dead-eyed staring at walls, too.
My Copy: 9780385485517 (image from amazon.com) I'm not sure what exactly I expected to get from this book, but I did find it immensely helpful in a lot of ways. I think the title sums up what might be the overarching, lingering thing about dealing with suicide--most of the time, there's no time to say … Continue reading No Time to Say Goodbye: Surviving the Suicide of a Loved One, by Carla Fine
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Back Yard Gardening - From My Backyard
