It's been a hard road to slog through, and I've fallen way behind on some things and barely touched others. My days and evenings have been full of obsessively playing video games, hoping to reach ever-elusive goals. And then, while doing that, making new reading lists for the year (because my files weren't saving right … Continue reading I think I FINALLY managed to bore myself out of my usual procrastination methods…
Tag: depression
When depression makes you stupid, & dealing with it…
I know, I know. The Holidays (dun-dun-DUN!) bring that out for a ton of people. But really, it isn't so much that. I haven't been depressed in the sense of feeling sad; it's more that feeling where things are pointless or you've mentally checked out. I recognized the depression after three mid-afternoon naps again. I … Continue reading When depression makes you stupid, & dealing with it…
In spite of everything, we’ve had some crazy beautiful weather out there…
I had to remind myself of that. So. Damned. Many. Times. Too many. I was feeling tired, worn down, depressed, annoyed, headachy, and just trying to find something--anything--to do. I didn't wanna clean house, and it was a bit hot outside so I didn't take the dogs out right away when I got home. Rather, … Continue reading In spite of everything, we’ve had some crazy beautiful weather out there…
A bad time to be a “recovering recluse?”…
I'm still on the fence about this, and I've been thinking about it since the talk of self-quarantine started coming up in the media. It's just weird to see it out in the real world, too. It looks pretty lonely out beyond work. I'm a work to home person for the most part. Get things … Continue reading A bad time to be a “recovering recluse?”…
When “busy work” is just that, & you finally acknowledge it…
Maybe it's the internet outages I've had the past week, or the odd schedule I've been trying to contend with. Maybe it's looking at things in my old notebooks that just don't gel anymore and I want to make them right. Maybe it's that I just haven't wanted to do housecleaning because I don't have … Continue reading When “busy work” is just that, & you finally acknowledge it…
When you have so much on your plate that you end up getting nothing done…
At least, nothing that absolutely needed to get done. I should've had a clean house top to bottom by now, a bunch of hours of exercise under my belt, lots of music practice, etc. Instead, I ended up wasting days going over my book list, revising and editing what to read and when (and leaving … Continue reading When you have so much on your plate that you end up getting nothing done…
The closer it gets to Christmas, the more a liar I become…
I thought about this this morning when I just couldn't sleep anymore and had to wait for the local store to open so I could get some more coffee (and frozen chopped spinach--can't believe the mega grocery store near work didn't have any last night). I call myself a liar because at least a week … Continue reading The closer it gets to Christmas, the more a liar I become…
Playing with New Years Resolutions. Learning how to prioritize me.
Naturally, health is going to be on the list. The difficulty is this week especially, I have to focus on finances and getting things corrected before all the tax season stuff gets really going. That's what I hate the most, but today and tomorrow I'm dedicating myself to getting it all cleared up as best … Continue reading Playing with New Years Resolutions. Learning how to prioritize me.
Trying not to let a bad week derail my efforts…
I suppose when it's been an anniversary week like this, emotions and daily life will wreak havoc with careful plans. It wasn't just the emotional baggage, but I've also dealt with a ton of screaming kiddos during camp for several hours a day all week. That didn't help my attempts to be calm, cool, and … Continue reading Trying not to let a bad week derail my efforts…
Driving Yourself Crazy Isn’t All That Fun
I've had a sporadic eye-twitch in the past week. Deadlines have loomed ever nearer and my attempts to deal with family and legalese haven't left me in a zen state of mind. My right eye really got twitching on Monday night, and when I looked it up, I noticed stress and fatigue were the two … Continue reading Driving Yourself Crazy Isn’t All That Fun