Haven’t had my head screwed on straight in over a week, & boy has it showed…

I should still be in bed dozing a while longer on my day off, waking up slowly. Instead, I'm sitting here at 6:30 a.m. with my first cup of coffee, trying to figure out how I could've oh-so thoroughly screwed up my week (and month by extension). I should be sitting out on the porch … Continue reading Haven’t had my head screwed on straight in over a week, & boy has it showed…

Watched “Now, Voyager” & “Craig’s Wife” for the first time, & noticed some odd parallels for myself…

(image from Now, Voyager) For once, I decided not to let YouTube reign on the TV while I cleaned and worked on jigsaw puzzles. I mean, I have tons of movies DVR'd that I haven't watched yet, and kind of went randomly between a few. Some I got 15 minutes into and decided "no thanks," … Continue reading Watched “Now, Voyager” & “Craig’s Wife” for the first time, & noticed some odd parallels for myself…

The Waiting Game Continues… just didn’t expect the weeping, wailing & dead-eyed staring at walls, too.

Thank you, Narrator from Fight Club, for making my point nicely. Yesterday was one of those days where nothing was going right and I ended up on my garage floor, hugging my dog and bawling my eyes out. I've been in a state of needing to be around people until it hurt too much to … Continue reading The Waiting Game Continues… just didn’t expect the weeping, wailing & dead-eyed staring at walls, too.

Learning to Enjoy a Moment (or Hour) of Calm in the Midst of Chaos

I'm becoming a burned-out, worn-out, strung-out mess that just wants to pull the covers over my head and have everything done as best it can be done and move on. But time doesn't work that way, and it hasn't been my friend this whole crazy time. I did a little enjoying yesterday, which nearly got … Continue reading Learning to Enjoy a Moment (or Hour) of Calm in the Midst of Chaos

Depression & Guilt as a pseudo-Caregiver: My journey toward understanding & some much needed changes…

I say "pseudo-caregiver" because my dad can mostly take care of himself...at least, I think he can. We suck at getting to the bottom of things in this family, and it's something I've brought up a few times before, many months ago. Well, I've spent weeks trying to get over throat issues and chest congestion, … Continue reading Depression & Guilt as a pseudo-Caregiver: My journey toward understanding & some much needed changes…

#067–How do you do Mother’s Day when you can’t bring yourself to speak to your mother?

Let's call this Part 2 of my question #062 post: How do you talk to someone in your family when you have nothing to say? Anyway... I actually remembered Mother's Day was around the corner for once, and I'm sure this has fueled my anxiety and my totally distracted choices the past few weeks. I … Continue reading #067–How do you do Mother’s Day when you can’t bring yourself to speak to your mother?