I’m giving myself the rest of March to clean up the place: house, pantry, body, all of it.

Boy I love going to get a massage. When I let the craziness of the past weeks drift away, I can really think, and think really hard about what I need or want to do most. My initial goals about music and art and reading books haven't changed a bit, but I really have to … Continue reading I’m giving myself the rest of March to clean up the place: house, pantry, body, all of it.

Learning to Enjoy a Moment (or Hour) of Calm in the Midst of Chaos

I'm becoming a burned-out, worn-out, strung-out mess that just wants to pull the covers over my head and have everything done as best it can be done and move on. But time doesn't work that way, and it hasn't been my friend this whole crazy time. I did a little enjoying yesterday, which nearly got … Continue reading Learning to Enjoy a Moment (or Hour) of Calm in the Midst of Chaos

This Week’s Experiment: getting away from fast food for a week… and hopefully forever.

I was THIS close to just letting the hunger headache stick around and annoy me all day rather than eat. My habits and my tastes have gotten THAT bad, people. THAT BAD. I've written before about not wanting to eat anything because all I seem to get is fast food and stuff that flat out … Continue reading This Week’s Experiment: getting away from fast food for a week… and hopefully forever.

Depression & Guilt as a pseudo-Caregiver: My journey toward understanding & some much needed changes…

I say "pseudo-caregiver" because my dad can mostly take care of himself...at least, I think he can. We suck at getting to the bottom of things in this family, and it's something I've brought up a few times before, many months ago. Well, I've spent weeks trying to get over throat issues and chest congestion, … Continue reading Depression & Guilt as a pseudo-Caregiver: My journey toward understanding & some much needed changes…